Dealing with the passing of my father in December 2010 really made 2011 a very challenging year from start to finish. But alas, it is over and I made it through. Lots of tears, lots of alcohol, and even a trial of anti-depressants. I declare 2011 to be a year of grief, and 2012, a year of healing. I drank a lot last year, and I think I really needed that, it really helped me get through some tough times. But this year, I will limit myself to only social drinking. Its time to allow myself to heal and if I’m going to heal properly, I have to face the pain. Alcohol only helps me hide from the pain instead of facing it. No more drinking “just because.” Its time to get back in shape, get my energy levels up, and move forward with my life and my career. I’m at the brink of success, I can’t mess it up now.
Today, I ran/walked 3 miles. It was really tough to do, but I’m determined to go back and do it again tomorrow. I’d like to enter a race just to say I did one. Who knows, maybe I’ll actually run a marathon one day.
I have become the fattest I’ve ever been, and I can tell you one thing….I absolutely hate it! Most of the weight gain was from alcohol, no doubt about that. But I could use some help with my eating habits too. I’ve been eating whatever and whenever and I know better than that. I started today, like many other Americans on the first day of the new year. But I intend to stick with it.
I’m going to Hawaii this summer, but the only way I’m going to get there is if I get myself both physically and financially fit! I have a full 6 months, which is tons of time! I can do this. I will do this!
So, Happy New Year and here’s to a year of healing!
