Reflection

I’m being asked to reflect on my life through different avenues. School is asking me to reflect on my career through my admin intern credential since this is my first year as a school administrator. Church is asking me to reflect on my relationship with God. I started this blog to help me deal with grief. I suppose it did in the beginning. But, we all know that its much easier to not face the things that hurt the most. So, it was really easy for me to become “too busy” to write. In the beginning of the summer when things tend to slow down, I started to become very depressed. I made the decision to start taking anti-depressants and have been taking them ever since. Now I’m thinking I want to stop taking them, however I’m afraid that if I do, the depression will come back. For this, I’m starting to lean more towards waiting until January when I can start my grief group through the church.
That’s another thing. I started to go to church again. My first reason was to get Avery connected to a better group of kids with some better influences. I can happily say, this seems to be working. I want him to attend the school next year. But Church reached out to me too and I’m hooked, and I’m happy about it.
Work has been very busy! But I love it. Its challenging and its fun. Its really exactly what I needed at exactly the right time. I actually feel that way about going back to church too. My life seems to be in a peaceful place now.
I started going to a fitness group through the church this morning. It started at 5 which is pretty early. I don’t know if I’m going to go back. I do know that I need to keep working out in the mornings because the evenings aren’t going to work for me at all. Today, I have to make a decision about going back tomorrow. Right now, I would say no. But I may change my mind.
Hopefully I can make blogging here a habit again. I have a lot to say.

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